Yesterday, I ordered....

Yesterday I ordered a pair of pants in 14w. Audacious of me, but then, 16w is the size I'm in now if it's not highwaisted, and it's not too tight.

In my mind, that's too small to associate with myself. I've been size 18 or better almost all of my adult life.

I ordered a coat that's a regular xl, too...not having any winter clothes that fit, I bought a cheap coat here in a man's large, but this is for later, maybe by Christmas.

I'm in the fun situation of rethinking myself, because I am on the verge of something I've never been in my adult life.

Yesterday, I went to a fundraiser luncheon for one of the major cultural centers here. Lunch was a fancy salad. No oil and vinegar, so I used a teaspoon of the dressing provided to moisten it a bit. Passed on the fruit punch. left the strawberry cheesecake untouched. Maintained my new way of eating, and it felt good. New coping strategies. New ways to keep active. New ways of thinking about myself.

It's neat.